Earlier on I was reflecting on how lucky I am today that I can just get on with life and don\’t have to worry about recovery. I appreciate things in life so much more these days and notice the simple things in life such as the river and trees much more these days. I feel that I am part of everything today, where I used to convince myself I was different. In the bad old days, Sunday would have been a day to recover from Saturday night, rather than a day to relax and enjoy. It is rather different today.
I woke up quite early today and did about an hour of Pilates exercising. This is really relaxing and also gives me a good stretch which helps me as I work a lot with computers. I also worked on strengthening my back, which is important when you sit a lot. I find the breathing and concentration involved helps center me a lot and is almost mediative. I also did some yoga stretches and did a short meditation. After that I went for a fairly fast run along the river and around the park. there had been some rain earlier and everything smelt really fresh. I had not run for years, but started after reading a Paul Mckenna book which suggested exercise would help depression. it has certainly helped me over the years, as that is something I do not have to face any more.
I seem to be a lot more observant these days. I used to take many things for granted. If you get out and about and spend time with positive people doing worthwhile things, everything seeems so much better. I am happy to stand on a bridge looking at water or watch the light change on buildings through the window. None of these things would have mattered when I was drinking and they also got put in the background when I used to go to 12 step meetings. I am work in a creative industry and that is what I enjoy and am glad that I make it a big part of my leisure as well. I took a few pictures today and have put a couple here. I enjoy having a camera with me, especially when there are so many great things to take picture of in London.
I have also been cooking really healthy food, which is something that always makes me feel good. In the last couple of weeks I have made lots of chilled soups, which have been really tasty. I am about to do some asian style cod. I\’m also going to play a bit more music and then watch a film. I look foward to living life these days, which was not the case some time ago. It has taken some time to work things out, but things really improved for me when I stopped going to AA and just joined the “normal people” that live life!